immature brat

Hello people of the world! hmm sounds weird but oh well haha =P
anyways.... the title? well....
my cousin's girlfriend is 15 going to 16 and at that age you should be a little bit mature...
I mean come on.... why act like a brat?
she wanted to 'tatak' my cousin's ex just because he forgot to un-tag her from his picture...
seriously? it's ok to be mad about the tag but why want to 'tatak' her?
I think 'tatak' means stab btw and I don't mean once....
people these days are getting crazier than ever....

WEEEEEE~~~~

I'm done!!!
no more papers!!!
I'm so happy now...
but then again I'm sad cause I'll be leaving my friends...
aww 5 Cekal 2010 I'm gonna miss you guys sssssssoooooo muuuuuucccccchhhhh :'(
all the memories are safely kept in my heart =D
the pranks we made....
the competitions we participated in and won=D (not all but still)....
the challenges we faced....
we fought, laughed, cried together...
shit here I go again with the sadness...
well that's it for nowwwwww........
I have loads of free time to keep this blog updated now :D
sorry for not updating readers!
I was busy with studying... :p is that believable? lol....
bubye!!! XOXO 

I wish....

Long time no update =D

Forget the smiley. I'm here to rant!
I really can't stand this anymore!
I'm suppose to focus on my studies but this is effin distracting.
Why must this happen?
I know my family has been having problems since like the beginning of time or whatever
but after my grandparents passed away,
all hell broke loose!
I hate this.
I REALLY HATE THIS!
Why must it happen?
Why? Why? WHY?
It's like they don't even care about their own flesh and blood!
What the hell is going on???
They try to hide it by faking a smile
and pretending that they are inseparable.
Oh puh-leaze! I'm old enough to see what's really happening you know.
Stupid grownups! Yes I'm calling them stupid!
Why am I brave enough to call them that?
well let me see...
Maybe it's because of their stupid childish way of handling problems?
Or maybe the way they ignore the people they don't like making others do the same
and gossip about those people. Much like a scene in a high school flick where the popular kids ruled the school.
and lastly, it's probably their way of hiding the truth from their children but end up discussing the problem in front of them anyway, or making their children hate the person or group of people they hate.
My family is basically a group of lunatics who are forcing themselves to live and stay close to each other just to please my grandparents but they cause problems to stay away from each other.
the spot of problems in my family was small but now it has practically covered every clean spot where there are no problems.
You're probably thinking:
This girl is horrible! How could she say those horrible things about her family? Does she hate her family?

well, my answer to that is, I love them no matter what but what they are doing to themselves are ridiculous. Is that what they want to happen in the next generation of this family? I don't think so. It's as if they don't care about my grandparents anymore. Put yourselves in my shoes and you would understand what I'm going through right now.

confused

argh which one should I pick???
I'm so confused right now...
should I pick dentistry or just take tassel?
my friend say it's easier to take tassel
but I want a job that gives a lot of cash *evil smile*
haha.... I know I can get a fat paycheck if I take tassel
but I have to go to another country for that...
I know living in another country sounds fun
but after watching too much CSI, Criminal Minds, Bones etc.
it got me thinking...
what would happen to me if I don't take good care of myself?
forget living in another country...
it's about the same living here...
ugh what's with people these days???
why must they make others fear and they live like nothing bad happened?
people like that are crap...
I'm so bad haha...
okay that's enough me ranting...
good night.... XP

3 years...

I can't believe it's been 3 years...

^_^

ceramah during holiday...

I can't believe my mom made me
go to UMS and listen to motivational talk crap bullshit...
and guess what?
It's the same dude that went to my school 2 years ago..
Mr. Hilter Yew...
once again he shouts and screams during his talk..
I was bloody bored because it's practically the same damn shit
of a talk he gave 2 years ago...
I would've escaped if it weren't for the reward...
any1 who straight A's 4 SPM rm750...
I'm not confident I can achieve that but I hope I can...

How do you ask someone about their secret when they don't know that you know?

so I know this secret
more like a problem.
I don't think that someone knows
that I know about it.
I'm dying to ask and help but
I can't.
no doubt that it'll break that someone's
heart if I ask about it.
HELP ME PLEASE....

my smile is all he can think of

I hate you

more like I hate myself but whatever.

I feel emo-ish today Idk why...

Help me feel better.

I miss the old me ='(

F...M...L...

And they say your teen years are the most precious memories you'll ever treasure...
It's that really true or they just say that because?
It's sort of precious... Sort of...
What about those memories of losing the close relationships you've been trying
your best to make it last... until I don't know... FOREVER maybe?
You'll be missing them once you separate with them right?
No matter how bad things ended?
You'll start to daydream about the fun times you had together...
The foolish mistakes you made together... The crushes with the cutest, kindest, six-pack(oops he he...)
The tears we shed... crazy times trying to release your stress...
In a few months I'll be leaving the place where I had most of those memories...
Six Crazy Hours Of Our Lives.... SCHOOL ...
I can't help but think whether I should be happy cause I'm leaving heaps of everyday homework
or sad because these memories I carry would fade away as soon as I leave...
I've made all sorts of mistakes that I regret doing...
If I had one wish... I would wish that I was form 1 once again...
Then maybe I could have prevented myself from going to that school and
went to boarding school like my mom told me to...
But I'm pretty sure that's not a good idea....

Report card...

The 10th of April...

I don't feel... no scratch that..

I DON'T WANT that damn day to come...

ear-aching lectures...

hmm... Wish me luck

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday dear

Hope you like your present...

May God bless you muaxxx...

I love you

I hope you can keep that promise of yours!

hehe...

I rather...

Ignore everything around me

than to be hurt by problems to I am forced to face

Goodbye

It's easy to say the word

but what if you have to say that to the ones 

you love and mean it?

I'm going crazy!

Why... Why must this happen?
Argh!!! I don't want to doubt you..
Seriously I don't.
But there's something in my mind,
telling me not to trust you anymore.
I know you having nothing to hide
but there's something in me that makes me doubt you..
Why? Why oh why does this happen to me?

I've been so rude to my mom and my sister lately.
I don't know why.
Maybe it's because of my period?
Ha ha yeah right...
hormones flying all over the place? lol...
Maybe it's because of my age.
I'm 17 now and it's my last year for highschool.
I guess I just want attention before I lose it.
I just want to be scolded as much as I can get
sounds crazy? Yes but that's because I want to remember them.
I know it's stupid that I have to hurt them just to remember them.
But when you think about it,
it's easier for you to remember the awful memories you've experienced
rather than the sweet memories you'd love cherish in your hearts.
Weird? I don't know but what I know is that we should always keep
all the memories we have in us. Bad or good, it will always remind you
of those whom you love.
Even though it's a heartbreaking memory of an old boyfriend/girlfriend,
it doesn't hurt to just remember the fun times you had together.
No matter how bad that significant other was to you,
he/she would always be that person that once made you smile, laugh, cry and so on.
The memories of the sacrifices you've made will remind you
that you're not the worst person on earth because you've
sacrificed for others before.
Memories are sweet. Good or bad there's no difference.
You'll learn from both of them anyway.
You may repeat your mistakes but it's never too late for a change.
Others may not forgive you but it doesn't hurt to compromise. ^_^

Je t'aime très cher. Peu importe combien de douleur nous avons eue ensemble

History... history... HISTORY!!!

People say that  subject bores you to death.
Actually it KILLS you to death by making you
memorize all those leaders, years, agreements and what not.
It's such a torture to memorize them man!
Tomorrow's the paper and I have no idea how to put all
of those in my head!
I know one thing for sure though.
I should get my hands off this laptop.
But I can't cause I'm addicted to it.
Especially this game Wake the royalty

Just kill me

 

I give up.

Seriously.

I'm going through hell everyday.
Facing crap pretending to be strong
just to survive a hell hole.
Why am I even here.
I should have moved when I got the chance to.
It's no fun anymore.
Obviously I'm alienated from everything thanks to myself.

2 hours of torture

Tomorrow will surely be a torture for me..

Marching under the hot sun...

I reeeaaalllyyy hope that the sun wouldn't be too hot...

Argh!

Woke up because I got a text.
I was about to wake up anyway, to study so I wasn't really bothered.
What bothered me was waking up in the middle of the night
panicking because I forgot to do my group's presentation.
The only reason I panicked was because I thought it was tomorrow/today
but when I checked the class schedule, it's on Thursday
I was like WTH???
Grrr I panicked for nothing...
Oh well... It's my fault for procrastinating my work.
I'm off to do my scoreA once again.
I'm not happy with result I got for the last one because it was bad :(
Gotta work harder Leno!

Question...

My dad says that the perfect partner for us is the person that loves you and not the person that you love....

I don't really get the meaning but tell me your opinion kay?

How's my life so far?

Well....
1st exam is less than two weeks and I don't why I'm not studying!
But I'm going to do it tonight and I MEAN it!
At least I think I do... Ha ha just kidding...
I'm gonna work my butt off cause I haven't been a good student
in studies of course.... Not my discipline...
It's a little bad but just the not passing up on time and not doing
homework kind of bad discipline.
Hey I know it's bad for me especially THIS YEAR cause if I don't change that,
I'm gonna REGRET it. But everybody is not perfect so you can't expect me to change
in a blink of an eye!
I'm blabbing again ==" what's wrong with you Leno?

Anyways...
I went to the Youth meeting with Mckie@Anet last night
and it was fun! XD
They're very friendly...
I can't wait for another meeting ^_^
But I hope I can balance between school, youth meetings and stuff...
I'm so happy that I went!
He's happy that I joined he he...
I thought he would joke about it but
instead of the annoying immature-ness him,
he just said 'that's good... I'm happy that you joined'
I was surprised that he didn't tease me
like he always does....
But I'm also happy ^_^

Okay that was last night.
Today us girls of 5A, 5C, softball team and the basketball team
had marching practice today.
we will be the representatives of our school for MSSD
one of the marching team of our school lh...
5I will also be the representatives of our school
only they are their own team.
we're gonna march like the firefighters march.
Mr Jo was holding a rattan so if any of us
makes any mistakes he would hit us with it
but not so hard lah... It's just to threaten us to do well
and be serious when we march
it's not the illegal type of hitting okay...
well that's it for now I guess...
Gonna do my score-a! ^_^

I just watched Shane Dawson's video
he told his viewers to give him something they/we did
this month that we're really proud of...
well what I'm proud of is umm....
let me see... I'm proud of...
Not relying on my mom too much for money...
It's a big step for me cause I'm not good at handling my money.
My family is facing financial problem for the moment(not that we're in debts or anything serious)
so I hope that I can act like adult who knows how to handle money...
pray for me! I'll be praying for you guys as well ^_^

Youth meeting

There will be a youth meeting next Monday
And I wanna go so badly but I don't have the guts to
cause I don't have friend...
I didn't grow up here which means the only people I know
are my family and the people from school...
Yes I know lame.
Even though I've been living here for 4 years and 2 months
I still don't know them much...

I wish I have th3s3 phones...

My friend recommended me this phone... After the reviews I've read... I totally agree with her...

Sony Ericsson Aino

 

I love it but I don't really like the keypad and the price....

This is what I really want...

Sony Ericsson Vivaz pro

 

I love the keypad but they haven't stated the price yet which 

obviously means it's very2 expensive...

Gosh I wish I had these phones... I would study really hard once I have these XD like that will happen...

It's impossible for me to have these now but MAYBE just MAYBE once the price decrease I would have

that chance xp

you're missing...

Where are you?
You're always blogging but I don't see you anymore...
Hmm... You must be busy with your 'activities' now...
Call me a bitch but I still worry about you okay...

So I was blog surfing and...

I read Lynet's blog and ended up in another blog
that belonged to her and my boo's friend...
(I feel like a stalker for doing that... sorry you two :(...)
well anyway... I was reading her post about her friends
(the reason was I saw his pic in it xp)
and when I read his part, it made me smile...
it made me realize that no matter how much pain
I've been through with him, he would always be there for me ^_^
(I don't even know if that had anything with the post but it's something like that I guess)
but I'm a devastated that a lot of fights and problems came up
between my friends and I throughout this relationship...
It ended with awkwardness between each and long silence...
I miss my friends so much but there's nothing I can do now
to get the bond we had back...
Sometimes I wonder if I made the right choice..
Whether I really want this or not...
Or should I change this...
I'm so confused now...
It's all such a blurr to me...



*Sorry Lynet and Yoyo for stalking....
I really am sorry for doing that :(
sorry....

Misunderstanding...

Damn it was just a misunderstanding...
I thought a war was about to start...
He/She really needs help
But no use helping a person
who doesn't even bother to appreciate
what people sacrificed just for him/her
Oh well.. whatever...
I don't even want to bother anymore...
I just thought that a movie was about to start
and it's priceless he he... just kidding... XD

Prince charming for a husband?

I use to imagine myself marrying a prince
or at least a gorgeous man who's perfect in every way
when I was a little girl...
But now that I'm facing reality,
there's only one in a million of girls
that manages to catch that dream...
It's not really necessary for someone to find the perfect bond...
Just as long as there's true love..
It's unbreakable...

There's never a day
that passes by without
me thinking about you...

Three words would always
appear whenever I think
about you...

First word has only one letter
Second has four
and the Third  has three letters...

Moments I carry
will always stay
It doesn't matter whether it's bad or good...

Is it war once again?

I'm not sure but I think I see a spark....

It's not the kind of spark that lovers have...

But the kind that enemies have when...

A war is about to start...

It seems like it has already started...

I can see the explosions...

Is it true?

I'm sure one of you gets what I mean =)

It's a boy! ^_^

My aunt gave birth to a baby boy!

I wish it was yesterday because

he would be such a beautiful birthday present! Hehe...

See those toddlers in the header?

Those are his siblings ^_^

there's one more but she was busy

doing something else at the time...

The oldest, the boy in the pic,

was so eager to meet his baby brother.

It was adorable because he kept on shouting

"abang wan go see baby! abang wan baby!"

I will post pics of this adorable baby soon ^_^

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-Leno out-
Btw dear, there's no me without you ^_^

Boredness

I'm so bored...

Mom told me to do my score-a

but I'm too lazy XP

I lied to her

I say I did it already

I'm so lazy...

Tell me ways to get fat

I wanna be fat

well not really fat

just chubby XD

Help me get fat!

But not that fat

just chubby hehe...

Old but brand new ^_^

Ok got a new blog cause something is wrong with the last one...
So I deleted it and made a new one...
I regret doing so but there's no looking back...